Jesus said: (Taken from: Diary of Saint Maria Faustina
Kowalska, 1488) My child, know that the greatest obstacles to holiness are
discouragement and an exaggerated anxiety. These will deprive you of the
ability to practice virtue. All temptations united together ought not disturb
your interior peace, not even momentarily. Sensitiveness and discouragement are
the fruits of self-love. You should not become discouraged but strive to make
My love reign in place of your self-love. Have confidence, My child. Do not
lose heart in coming for pardon, for I am always ready to forgive you. As often
as you beg for it, you glorify My mercy.
First we notice that Jesus always gives His blessing, before
any healing, any teaching or guidance there are His blessings through His love;
simple, direct, without division or confusion, he simply says, “my child.” If
we couldn’t wrap our minds around anything else, there would always be His
authority and His sovereignty in our lives, made manifest through His love for
us, His children. Glory and praise to You, our Lord, Christ Jesus. He is God,
his name is Lord.
Why do I return to the models again and again? Because His
words point to His spiritual truth. Whereas, our minds make observations and
draw conclusions. His attention is focused on what is spiritual; while our
minds contend with what is psychological. In His Oneness, everything is
singular. In our brokenness everything is dualistic or plural. Christ Jesus
tells us the greatest obstacles to holiness; holiness being His focus, are two
aspects of our psychological brokenness, one being discouragement and the other
anxiety. Through our examination we realize what hinders our holiness are not
spiritual considerations rather psychological ones. In His holiness, His
Oneness, He effortlessly makes the connection between what is spiritual and
what is psychological which points to the correct examination for us. If we are
listening, we hear Him tell us; these things of the mind, the discouragement
and anxiety keep us from the application of His spiritual concern, virtue. Now
notice, in His genius, that virtue spans both models, the spiritual and the
psychological. Because of our experiences in this world of people and ideas we
are forced to contend with ourselves before entering His domain of holiness.
Since the Lord knows us better than we know ourselves, he shows us how these
models work without calling attention to them.
Notice how He returns to the examination again and again.
Next, He tells us all temptations, even all temptations of the world ought not
disturb our interior peace. In this example, the internal peace, is His
presence. Again, we see the psychological depicted as any and all temptations and
His spiritual presence as peace; these models show the singularity of His
domain and the duplicity of ours.
The Lord continues the inquiry for us by demonstrating how
interchangeable our fragmented parts and pieces are, by introducing,
sensitiveness. Here, He shows us how we decide what to consider. In our ego
driven world, we take the lead, we pick and choose the obstacles, we decide
what’s bothering us whether it be actual events or displaced energies is not
important, only that we are deciding, holds any weight for us.
The next step in His carefully structured analysis, is to
turn our attention to the root cause of our dilemma. He calls this,
“self-love”; what we might commonly refer to as our pride. Call this feature
what you will, the impact is to show us what happens when we put ourselves
before Him, our Lord. We reinforce our brokenness, fortify our vanity and
ignore the obvious. John the Baptist knew this well when he proclaimed, “I must
decrease, and He must increase.” This process is not so simple. On closer examination,
we see two words used which points to the spiritual and psychological model.
Christ Jesus tells us, we “ought” to not let the world disturb His presence in
us. “Ought,” is meant to focus our attention on Him in His perfection. “Ought,”
expresses a condition of being perfect in a world of imperfection. Again, in
His genius, He separates what is from what cannot be. Knowing full well we will
never live in a world of what “ought” to be, He encourages us to “strive” to
replace our human condition with what He has given us as our human nature. This
nature is the likeness and image of Him, as He created in us and for us. The
message is clear, this nature is unattainable but approachable; a reflection of
God Himself being unattainable yet approachable.
The final element in my prayerful discernment of this timely
discourse to us is the intensity of mind and spirit with which it demands.
Christ Jesus tells us His pardon, His forgiveness, His love and His mercy is
always available to us, as long as, we beg for it…..for the time for praying
has ended, the time for begging has begun.